Not quite the tragedy I imagined

So I've been living back home for about 2 weeks now...and things are going really well. My parents and I had a few spats in the beginning, but it seems like those are going to be few and far between. Amazing! I've had job interviews at 2 different places, one full time and one part time, and I'll work both if I get them. Keep those fingers crossed! Otherwise, it's great to constantly be reminded how wonderful my friends are--no matter how far apart we may be in distance. Also, Bella is becoming an outside cat, and she seems to love it!! All is going well right now. More later, but I should be off to bed now. I'm trying to get into a more "normal" sleep routine, because if I get my jobs one is from 8 AM to 4 PM and the other will go from about 5 PM to midnight and of course weekends. I won't be working the part time everyday if I get the full time too, but I might want to get some sleep while I can. Night night!


Oh, and I got my hair chopped off and sent to Locks of Love. I plan to give blood soon, and I've been doing volunteer work too! :)

Ahh!!

My parents are getting here in a week to move me home, and I'm thrilled and terrified and I don't even know what else. I also may have a temp job when I get in Chattanooga--everything helps, especially when it directly applies to my resume. Keep your fingers crossed!

"Reel" Wisdom

I love movies...here are some great quotes from them! :)

“Beginnings are scary, endings are usually sad, but it's what's in the middle that counts. So when you find yourself at the beginning, just give hope a chance to float up. And it will.”

Hope Floats










“God loves you just the way you are but He loves you too much to let you stay that way.”
Junebug












“If we don’t start trusting our children, how will they ever become trustworthy?”
Footloose







"The most important thing in life is your family. There are days you love them and others you don't, but in the end they are the people you always come home to. Sometimes it's the family you are born into, and sometimes it's the one you make for yourself."
Sex and the City (from the TV show, but a good one)








"You got a dream, you got to protect it. People can't do something themselves, they want to tell you that you can't do it. You want something? Go get it."
The Pursuit of Happiness











I'm sure I'll have a lot more of these!! :) :)

Mama Mama always aid life was like a box a chocolates, never know what you're gonna get.always said life was like a box a chocolates, never know what you're gonna get.

Freaky...Tuesday??

I'm sure once I'm back in Tennessee I won't have much time to post, particularly pictures of myself. I love how I'm talk as if I have followers at this point haha. But anyway, it will be interesting to see how writing goes when I'm wading through that living-with-the-parents-again thing. Also, this is the only time in my life I haven't had a job since I was 15, and it's not going to last. THANK HEAVENS. I feel so much more productive with a job, but I will tell you that I'm having fun not working. I get to watch my favorite old movies, surf the net, talk on the phone for 5 hours at a time, and reflect on what used to be my life. You know what, though? I'm actually looking forward to hanging out with my parents and I hope it lasts. I don't know if I got lamer or they got cooler, or if I spent too much time trying to distance myself from them...whatever the cause, I genuinely enjoy their company now.

When does it happen that you become friends with your parents? Like when certain things happen and I have to call my Mama because she will think it was so cute, or my Daddy because it will make him crack up? I love wine and chat fest nights with my Mama and Harry Potter movie extravaganzas with my Daddy. My only wish is that my brother wasn't going to be in Afghanistan for SEVEN MONTHS. I miss him very much. He truly is just a funny guy. My parents had a lot of influence in how I turned out, but my number one influence in humor was my older brother. I can't believe he's 26...or that I'm 23 for that matter!

You know what else I can't believe? It's been FOUR YEARS since I was a bonafide debutante. Let's hope I get to wear a pretty white dress again...haha. Man, life goes by so quickly.

My girls and I are trying to plan a beach trip again. Reunion of Spring Break 2008, anyone?! That was seriously a ridiculously fun trip, especially since I hadn't been to the beach since my senior year of high school and it was then my senior year (the first one) of college. Plus, I looked hot! That picture, with my darling college girls, is my inspiration to be thin again--maybe just in a healthier way!

At any rate, I'm just rambling now. I've been up all night, because that's how I roll, and its 6 AM! I'm waiting for my Sprinkles to wake up so we can go to the gym :). Before I go, I should just focus on the fact that no matter where I go, or what I do, or HOW DOWN I GET, I am still the person who likes to laugh with my friends, watches movies because they mean something to me perhaps more than they should, loves her whiskey even if I don't drink all that often anymore, a karoake queen, and a girl who loves to let her hair down and DANCE with life gets tough.

A favorite poem of mine

It is not my work (obviously) but for some reason it has stuck with me since I first read it.

i carry your heart

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)i am never without it(anywhere i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling) i fear no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true) and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide) and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart) -e.e. cummings

Home is where the heart is...

I'm getting more and more apprehensive about leaving this little, unique town of Oxford, MS. It is difficult realizing how very much I will be missed, but also utterly heartwarming. To know that my darling friends love and appreciate me as much (if that is possible!) as I love them is the best gift I could ever be given. Everybody wants to know that they have left an impact somewhere, even in the smallest way. The tears that will be shed when I say goodbye to Oxford as HOME and go back to my original home will be many years in the making and great in quantity. When I come and visit (in November!!), I will be a visitor. At the same time, I'm going home. It is just odd when you hit that point when home becomes so many different places, because your heart no longer lies in only one location. It's nice to know that there are very few places I could ever hope to visit where I would not have a place to stay and friends to play and laugh with. Being loved is all I could ever hope for, and I already have that times 100. I'm eager to see what the next chapter in life will bring me, and also wary because I know myself--and I don't like change.

Worried

Have you ever had so much to do that you are overwhelmed? I've been looking around my apartment and realizing that I have 5 years worth of memories to pack up, give to consignment shops, and throw away. FIVE YEARS WORTH. For pack rats like me, this task will be nothing short of a miraculous undertaking. I hate packing up apartments, and I've had to do that a lot lately. I always get so distracted looking back over stuff, and end up making a dozen phone calls to reminisce. Anybody else have this trouble?? I guess throwing away stuff is necessary; painful but necessary.

All I can hope is that nothing happens to my precious pictures, fun posters, and clothes. Of course, my wish is that nothing happens to any of my stuff (I have a BIG movie collection and a lot of nice furniture!) but those pictures are absolutely priceless. I've already had problems with flooding in my last apartment destroying some pictures, and I don't want anything like THAT to happen again. I'm sure I'll have some interesting news to share once I start packing tomorrow. Hey, this new blog is a nice way to distract myself further--phone calls and working out can only go so far ;)!

Life's A-Changin'

I'm moving away from Oxford, MS in the next couple of weeks and, gulp, moving back in with my parents. I would explain how I felt about this, but to be honest--I'm not sure. My parents and I had a strained relationship at best during my teen years, and we have all discovered that we get along about a billion times better when not living the day to day under the same roof. As it is, what with my indecision and the economy being a piece, I don't have a choice for at least a little while. So, it'll be back to relying on the folks for food and entertainment--more so on the entertainment front since the people who made me cool in high school no longer live in Chattanooga. Sigh.

So I'm 23 years old with a BA in Psychology, and I feel like I'm 16 all over again. For the past 5 years I have taken care of myself--paying my own utility bills, car insurance, food, entertainment, and the like--with the exception of paying for my school. I know how to be surprisingly self sufficient, and then I lost all opportunity to have a job in THIS town--don't ask. I'm actually pretty excited about moving back to Chatty--it's beautiful and I know my way around there and I miss it--but leaving this home will be sad. There is no place quite like Oxford, and there never will be. I'll be visiting again in November, but I will certainly miss all of my Mississippi friends. I guess that's what phones, Facebook, MySpace, Twitter, gchat, and the like are for, but still. It'll be bittersweet. I think my parents and I will be fine--once I realize that they do own the house and they realize I'm not a little girl anymore. And I do miss my parents, but who knows how this will go. I'll keep y'all posted!